May 30, 2011

A cup of coffee and lot of memories

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           While sipping my second cup of frappe in Mc Donald's, CP from my favorite corner, i see vehicles roaring on either sides , happy shoppers running around  and foreigners soaking the Indianess in this blazing sun everyone seems to be happy i wonder if this is the Janpath shopping or is it that these people are genuinely happy? I had nothing to do so i was busy checking out people and  after lot of gazing i want TIME to stop right now, A DRAMATIC PAUSE and when i press play again nothing should change. This is just a random day nothing worth remembering has  happened today yet i want time to stay still. my 21 years in Delhi and NOIDA is coming to an end. I 'am going to Hyderabad to adorn my academic list with an unwanted MBA degree, unwanted only for me. Sometime we end up giving in for what circumstances want and that's what i did and decided to get on with this MBA. 

     Moving away from Delhi was my dream not because I don't like Delhi but because  I wanted to stay alone. I always wanted to move out of den and  face the real world. Go out with friends late hours was another thing i wanted but just to see how it feels otherwise i love my loneliness . Drink till i drop on the floor flat and so like but now that I' am leaving i wish i could go back and stay in Delhi with my parents . They are my cocoon , i feel safe and wanted with them . All of a sudden the prospect of so called freedom is looking like a painful shackle to me. All those insecurities and inhibitions are peeping out from my inner-self , I' am scared to start from scratch . I want my protective shield around me to protect me and scold me when i trip. I was running after my so called freedom for nothing when deep down that's not what i wanted. All i wanted was little bit of support and some re-assurance that I' am capable of chasing my dreams.

    Just two days before my journey the plethora of thoughts is of  no relevance but i have started to think that amidst of all the cat and mouse run and race we are somewhere missing on our real purpose and self. Most of us just live dreaming of becoming something that is far away from what they actually are. I know what my dreams are and i just need to find a way for making them happen .. i hope Hyderabad shows me that

P.S . I don't know if i will be able to continue blogging there .. but one thing all my readers and their comments are truly special and thanks for the support . 

   KEEP DREAMING and live to make them happen .. stay happy :D

       

3 comments:

  1. My compliments for your blog and pictures included,I invite you in my photoblog "photosphera".

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    Greetings from Italy

    Marlow

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  2. Nice post.

    I really like your blog and the wish list is very interesting like catch a last metro from Noida to Dwarka and make up thing.
    Hope your life is going good in Hyderabad and you will start blogging soon.
    Eagerly waiting for your next post.

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  3. hey rachti .. thanks man..
    hyderabad is good its just tht im finding my essence in this crowded city ...
    i have a lot to write about but no time ,, i hope ill find the time soon ..

    hope ur bloggin is going good

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